“It is so hard to leave—until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world.”

So it's two days until I will move to Holland and start my new life over there as a student knowing nobody kicked into the adult world. WHooooa Im not very prepared for this and got quite a lot to pack and it hasnt quite sinked in yet I will leave so soon. However today I'll be meeting one of my best friends, this whole week has mostly been running around meeting friends and packing, paper work and just staring at the wall trying to tell myself "it wont be so bad".
Im quite sure it will be bad for the first few weeks however I do belive it will turn out fine.

Yesterday I say goodbyes from my boyfriend with whom ive been 3 years in a relationship with and he is doing the military service for the coming 6 months. Damn it was hard but I had to seem strong since it would have been so much harder otherwise, he didn't have to know my world was literally falling apart on the inside. However we are heading to a long distance relationship hoping he will move to Holland next year were we could continue new adventures. You never know...

ILY