Xmas wishlist :D

A few weeks ago I walked into urban outfitters and managed to make a huuuge wishlist on what I would die to have from only that store... :S Biggest want is the sweater with the raindeers for 60€ :O

A map u can scratch of the places you have been to
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Tetris light ^^
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Led light with The P ias in PAWESOME
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woow that was deep

Hey, last month has been such a chaos, but I am really happy Im starting to get some friends since the silence is literally killing me sometimes. So be honest idk where the typical awesome student life is around here, I feel jealous when I see my old friends post pictures where they have fun with their new friends and seem to have such an awesome time. What did I do wrong not to experience that.

Why am I the one crying with a friend at dinner since we really feel we made a mistake in life. 

But I believe there is always a bright side to things, but missing old life is never going to disappear. Yesterday I failed my first exam and got two more to go, it feels unfair that working so hard for something often doesn't turn out as it should.

I bought my first pair of converse a few weeks ago, except they only gave temporary happiness and ill better hit the chocolate to increase my dopamine levels.

I feel like a cactus

Sometimes It's quite scary how some songs just fit so well to ones personal emotions that you yourself didn't quite know you had in you or just didn't know how to put in your own words. Therefore I feel i have to share this specific song I bumped into. A quite new song by "Lights" but also Owl city, my mentor in life. (Thanks for helping me understand myself, Adam Young)

CACTUS IN THE VALLEY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0LkKZmonqR8

I never meant to wither
I wanted to be tall
Like a fool left the river
And watched my branches fall
Old and thirsty, I longed for the flood
To come back around
To the cactus in the valley
That's about to crumble down

And wipe the mark of sadness from my face
Show me that your love will never change
If my yesterday is a disgrace
Tell me that you still recall my name

So, the storm finally found me
And left me in the dark
In the cloud around me
I don't know where you are
If this whole world goes up in arms
All I can do is stand
And I won't fight for anyone
Until you move my hand

And wipe the mark of madness from my face
Show me that your love will never change
If my yesterday is a disgrace
Tell me that you still recall my name

Oh, here
In the shadow
Here I am
And I need someone by my side
It becomes so
Hard to stand
And I keep trying to dry my eyes
Come and find me
In the valley

And wipe the mark of sadness from my face
Show me that your love will never change
If my yesterday is a disgrace
Tell me that you still recall my name

Wipe the mark of madness from my face
Show me that your love will never change
If my yesterday is a disgrace
Tell me that you still recall my name
Woo ooh
Tell me that you still recall my name, no
Tell me that you still recall my name, mm mm

Change in plans

Heyheyhey... let me drop the bomb, IM GOING HOME TODAY ALREADY!!! Yup next week all my classes got canceled and I thought why not go earlier to Finland. So now I get to be home for 1½ week instead of just 4 days. Anyway this of course created a chaos had to run to the store and buy some yummy dutch stuff for my family, I still have to clean my room, I'm afraid my luggage is to heavy and worse of all I HAVE NEVER GONE MY AIRPLANE ON MY OWN. And you think pfff how hard can it be? And i say it isnt. But who's shoulder do i cry on now if my flight gets canceled? But as the motto of dutch goes "YOLO" Im gona be fine...
Oh and what sense does it make that guy clothes are always cheaper than girl clothes even when they look exactly the same and even have better quality... Bought a sweater from the guy section for almost half the price the girl of that sweater would have been? Proven once again life as a girl is harder than for guys...

Dem sweater (can anyone see its a guys sweater? cmon..)

Hi im a blowfish and this is my new hat... H&M

I wanna go home

I guess uni life was slightly harder than I expected it would be, especially the loneliness.
Most of the people in my class or that I know don't even live close to Leiden so I never get to go out with them or waste my Friday evenings with them.
There is a countdown in 8 days Ill spend a few days in Finland, I miss my family, my sister, jenkki purukumi, risifrutti and finnkino and hanko sushi and Pizzarium with their nutella pizzas. Oh and everyday i still listen to radio x3m at my breakfast since I just cant listen to dutch radio XD (its just depressive)

So lately I've been trying to make time go faster by trying different sports e.g. hiphop im still very much into, however i love Zumba now and maybe ill even get my lazy butt to the gym every now and then. Except Motivation oh motivation could use some of that...
Last Friday the faculty celebrated their 50 year anniversary  which meant that the faculty building turned into a party place with sticky beer floors I wonder how they managed to get the building into a normal uni again x)

Ohyeah and just for absolutely no reason i bought this short biker jacket with studs ^^. My new addiction I guess ill be wearing it a lot and grow old with it.

ONLY 50€ 10€

Now Im off to the uni to hand in some homework and a 4h lecture -.-

First day of Uni

Yesterday I had my first day of uni which surprisingly was a kick in the face. At first we were given a paper with deadlines including an exam on upcoming Friday.  And after that we were put to directly follow a 4h long lecture where the docent just threw statistical equations on a huge screen. :D That sure was an interesting introduction day. Im happy with the schedule as i only have 3h a lectures a day usually from 11-13 so the rest of the day is met for self studying, i could handle that :) So the 1st thing i did when i got home was to grab the book and started studying for the exam... :s 

I study at Leiden university, Psychology in dutch and we are all together 500 students and i think the plan is to end up with half of that before xmas as people realize it might not be the study for them. I want to become a neuropsychologist or a "legal psychologist" whatever you call it but im heading for the more biological part of this, I would never be able to handle depressive children.

Aanyway soon i gota head over to the uni so nice its a 10min biking distance so I get to sleep soo much longer :)

Later alligater.

Recovering

Typically a few days after recovering from the El Cid week means a sudden flue or whatever you want to call it, where you feel more miserable than ever and manage to crawl to the train station to get to your aunt and uncle that can take care of you for a few days... :) And today I'm home again feeling re-powered but still quite like shit, But WHOCARES ima go say hi to my grandma and later today Im meeting up with a mysterious magician that i befriended during the introduction week.
LATER!

we look like crazy football fans

Pounding Ears

Finally get to take a break from being surrounded by 3000 people all the time partying :D Last week i joined the introduction week EL CID in Leiden where you are placed in a group of 15 people and you follow a program during the day, visiting the uni, playing games and ofc the most legendary parties Leiden has ever seen in the evening... To be honest sorry Finland your parties suck... :D 

Except it was so crowded at the El Cid parties it got super hot and sweaty and hard to move and I ended up with bruises and hurting knees from dancing and yeah thanks to those who like to pour beer over people -.- But the music and the DJ's!! Freaking unbelievable my ears were pounding by the end of the evening but i've never experienced that good music in my whole life, it's addictive. Links below of some serious awesome Dutch parthey music :)

RUDIMENTAL

RUDIMENTAL

HELEMAAL NAAR DE KLOTE

ANIMAL- MATIN GARRIX

VANDAAG-BAKERMAT

HEY LADY LUCK

PAPAOUTAI

LA LA LA CANT HEEEEEEAAAARRR YOUUUU!!!

ALONE

So my first post from living as a independent strong woman... I've been for a week in Holland preparing my apartment/room such as buying Ikea things etc.my room was a serious nasty mess when I took a look at it on Monday. But now it's all fixed and cozy ^^. So my family had been helping me for the past week and they went home back to Finland today. The first 20min alone were horrible feeling very lonely however after making tea in my microwave im all good (for today) :D. Havnt met my neighbours yet as they are waaay older than me but we'll see. Next week im having a crazy introduction week for 3000 students and i've allready figured out who i will be hanging around with the coming week :) it will be fun fun fun. Tomorrow ill just get back to cleaning my walls and biking around the city :) I live in Leiden now btw...

TTYL <3

My beautiful street "Herengracht" :)

“It is so hard to leave—until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world.”

So it's two days until I will move to Holland and start my new life over there as a student knowing nobody kicked into the adult world. WHooooa Im not very prepared for this and got quite a lot to pack and it hasnt quite sinked in yet I will leave so soon. However today I'll be meeting one of my best friends, this whole week has mostly been running around meeting friends and packing, paper work and just staring at the wall trying to tell myself "it wont be so bad".
Im quite sure it will be bad for the first few weeks however I do belive it will turn out fine.

Yesterday I say goodbyes from my boyfriend with whom ive been 3 years in a relationship with and he is doing the military service for the coming 6 months. Damn it was hard but I had to seem strong since it would have been so much harder otherwise, he didn't have to know my world was literally falling apart on the inside. However we are heading to a long distance relationship hoping he will move to Holland next year were we could continue new adventures. You never know...

ILY

ITS OVER

NEVER EVER EVER AGAIN. Yesterday I had my graduation the day of my life i've been looking forward to for so long. We had our ceremony at the Akatemiantalo in Turku with speeches and songs. The tears were dripping from my eyes when two girls in my class sang a cover of "wake me up" by Avicii. Afterwards some pictures were taken and I ate sushi with my sister (my favorite dish).
I then waited for a dinner that we would have in the evening at a restaurant from which we continued our trip to the Monkey a night club in Turku. Although we were below 20 we had special permission and we entered the place wearing our caps. I'm quite sure that evening was the best night of my whole life so far. I had such incredible fun.
ATM im feeling empty and sad knowing it's over and some of my incredible lovely class mates I might not see in a very very long time. :'( They all ment so much to me. I WILL MISS YOU GUYS. I will forever be thankful that you entered my life and made me the person I am today.

Autch

Sorry bout the silence Ive had a hard time with myself and life.

So yesterday I wanted to have a good time with my lady friends from my class, and we really had a good time in Amarillo night club dancing however man there are some serious wierd shit people there. Some guy was just standing in the middle of the dancefloor not moving a muscle with his hands in his pockets... (alla som inte dansar e våldtäckts män) :S
anyway at some point a felt a horrible pain in my foot and had to jump on one leg off the dance floor, and yeah I literally had to dig some pieces of glass from the bottom and inside of my shoe (i was wearing converse shoes) once at the bathroom i realized my shoe was filled with blood and i had glass in my foot and the people working there didnt have a bandade -.- thanks alot.
Note to everybody: Do not go to nightclubs where the people working there are not prepared to clean up the broken glass from the ground.

Tomorrow: Pics from latest summer sale shopping :)

Thats how u tell u got a rapist on the dance floor. Ima take my jetpack cuz i got nothing to do here....

KABOOM

So today was such a crazy day :P
Went to the dentist got to hear my teeth will get pulled out at some point, got a super short haircut, went swimming with my sis outdoors and it was extremely cold and we decided to randomly go watch Man of steel instead :) Ah I love super hero movies with all the dramatic music and explosions however ironman is always gonna be in my heart what so ever. Superman sort of lacks the humor. Anyway superduper worth watching. Next week lone ranger ^^

My new haircut supershort on the sides hoping in four weeks until graduation it will have grown out a bit :D 

A rainbow in my ear

So lately I havn't quite felt music has brought me much happiness like it usually does and I didnt enjoy hearing the good old songs like I usually do but however ouyeah KABOOM just from the sky I fell in love, with Macklemores, Ryan Davies song Can't hold us. And its pretty much been on repeat for the few free minutes I got today. But yeah I'm back at having a music crush, wonder how long this one is gona last :D

The video is amazing too :)

Oops one of those days

One of those days you say "fuck it i want it" and you actually go get it without walking past it for the 100th time. So yeah we are talking shopping here, I spent my whole morning saying fuckit i like it i want it and imma go get it and so i did. And FINALLEEEY I got my "inka indian print pants"  dats de new fashion crush I have. There are three things I'm totally head over heels with
1. Inka patterns 2. studs 3. lace...
If you find any kind of clothing with any of those on I want it and once they are mixed or all on the same piece of clothing I cry. Its my addiction and crush.

Here are dem pics and Ill go calm my tits from this adrenalin rush I get from shopping :D

Both Shirt and pants are bought from Cubus 49.95€ for the pants and 19.95€ for the shirt :)

GIANT PUMPKIN

Sorry for my quietness however I've been on a little holiday to Holland for a couple of days with my bf. Freaking awesome, I'm planning to go study in Holland by the end of this year and I sort of wanted to go see the area and neighborhood in which ill probably get an apartment in. And we did some touristing in Amsterdam and smelled the Coffee shops.

Im also a collector of hard rock cafe t-shirts from all around the world and I happened to be missing Amsterdam which was strange so YAY now my collection is almost complete :P

Furthermore It's been quite a busy week, I'm starting my summerjobb tomorrow at Moominworld as I'll be working in the kiosks, and I had to go to a couple of schoolings  However I still feel very unsure about what I'm supposed to do and how things works, also I'm super shy when it comes to communicating in Finnish since i just simply don't speak it fluently... :S
Anyway I guess ill be fine after a while :)

So yeah please everybody come visit me in the Moominworld and laugh at me since I simply cannot use a cash register and my math skills are super pore and Im most likely going to give you too much change back :D

FunFun

Phew, I've had quite some busy time with having a life lately.. I'm not used to have so much time to waste :D Anyhow as I promised here are some pics of my lovely people from my IB-class that i've more or less exchanged blood,sweat and tears with and they are very close to my heart. For some reason we didnt manage to snap any pretty pictures but I think our excessive stress and weirdness has turned us into the people you can see below :) (Pictures are taken by HZ<3)

o.O I dont know what I just saw...

LIFE IS GOOD

Ah one of the most said words these few days "life is good", finally ive celebrated the fact that summer has started, no more school, no homework and i'm ready to start living the life I have waited so long for to start. We'll took a night out with my class mates on friday had a legendary awesome time, saturday we got our butts in a car and drove to Salo which is aprox.1h from Turku and spent our night there watching Eurovision. (pix will show up later). Its some kind of strange tradition we have developed with our friends. However we all ended up raging at the votes and results.

My top 3 favorites
1. Norway
2. Holland (just have to support my home country...)
3. Romania

Top 3 hates
1. Belarus, I could literally see her whole intestines from the size of her clothing
2. Germany, Please sounded like Euphoria than me rather than Gloria
3. Ukraine? Idk seemed a bit too over practiced to me
(no hard feelings the show was amazing overall) ;)

Some eurovision hotties in case you missed them:

OWL

TIDIII got my new glasses, I'm blind like a freaking mole :D I'm using contacts most of the time but I shouldn't use them as often as i do. So yay my face is gonna look like an owl face and hopefully i look a bit smarter.... :D

I don't need a telescope to see that there's hope, and that makes me feel brave

I just can't believe the huge relief and weight that was left of my shoulders once I walked out my final last exam yesterday. It was sure one of the strangest feelings I have ever experienced, I emptied my locker left the key erased everything that I have ever left in that school building and I'm so sick of that place I never want to return, epicness. :D
However i still have some awesome friends walking around there and some teachers I should thank for some nice times, but otherwise FREEEDOM. And this sweet freedom has tasted like minecraft playing 11h a day and yeah sleeping I guess... Aaaaargh still have to read some for entrance exams but if I'm asked to sit down in front of any books today I will literally burn them and everything around that has been contaminated.... :P I just consider my self as a graduated student and I don't want anything to fuck that feeling up for me.

My new SIRIUS Addiction and Im not snape i assure you:
MINECRAFT.... Me playiing videogames or computergames wha? since when? Why? Its crazy but soooo much fun. Anyway gota go get diggin to find some diamond ^^

I LOST A PART OF MY SOUL

I have had the feeling for a while I wanna do something crazey with my hair but i'm too afraid to dye it completely. I therefore used non permanent orange hair dye a few weeks ago and actually it made me feel better about my self :D sooo tadaaa i just decided to get my hair red permanently not completely just the bangs at the front... :) I'm afraid I cant go completely red head as I always blush like crazy for no reason at all and id be a complete tomato... 

I also found my graduation dress a few days ago, wanna keep it a secret a bit but i promise pics will show up once the day comes for me to wear it :) (its not what you would expect from me to be worn at a graduation day but its perfect!! ^^)

Awesome head tilt 

2 MORE DAYS UNTIL FREEDOOOM!!

SWEDISH RAP

I have no idea why but really I loooove swedish hiphop and rap music.  I was looking through some swedish songs and found some really beautiful pearls and a few that were recently released. 

There is no better feeling than when you find a new song that you just fall in love with right away :)

Enjoy ^^

Ansiktet: låtsas som inget hänt

Lorentz & Sakarias: All good

Dani M: Naiv

A CELEBRITY YOU ADMIRE VS.HATE

Hmm so many celebrities in this world, a celebrity that I hate or remember hate is a very strong word but it would be Reese Witherspoon. AND IM SORRY all the people in the world who think she is amazing, totally respect your opinions but to me she is all just "legally blonde" and I cant stand her :S



A celebrity I admire, Hmm that's a tricky one, I have a girl crush on Ellie Goulding but someone I can't have enough off. But yeah Im quite a huge fan of Robert Downey Jr. And is that strange not that I quite want to be like him or thinks he is a hero or my god (iron man is my hero and god though :S) He is just one of those amazing actors that never become boring, his humor is hilarious and yeh I think he is HANDSOME like idk what. ALWAYS manages to put a smile on my face :)

DAUYMN THOSE PUPPY EYES

SPOIL URSELF

So today is one of those awesome happy days and i felt like "well now u deserve something yummi" so I realized i haven't made chocolate balls rolled in coconut sprinkles in so long! And daymn i'm telling ya it's the easiest crap u can imagine to make. The recipe I use is based on ikeas chocolate cocoas balls and yeah u just literally mix everything together place it 30min in the fridge so they get a bit cold and less sticky, however they are yummy either way.

1. 100g butter/margarine
2. 1dl sugar
3. 3 Tbsp. cacao
4. 3dl oatmeal (sprinkles)
5. 3 Tbsp. cold coffee (i like moaaar)
6. sugar sprinkles or coconut sprinkles for le toppint

For some reason the recipe says 15-20 balls but c'mon then they would be so tiny... I somehow ended up with 5 super yummy balls, the bigger the better ;)

omnomnomnomnomonmonmnomnomnomnmonmonomnomnomnomnmomnommnmonmonmomonm

Happy Day

Yesterday I had a nice and cozy day with my ladies, the shamrocks. We went to Robberts coffee in Turku at which we are now loyal customers by now. We always decide to stay for 6 hours or something similar, quite surprising they have never kicked us out before :D In the evening we watched  the first game of the WM of Hockey between Finland and Germany. Personally I'm not interested in hockey and Im more of a crazy fan of football, but it was fun as we made tortillas (for some reason we always make that when we are together  and I got home later in the evening. Today Im all ready to study hard as my most important exams are on monday and tuesday. (psychology).

Happy Sunny day ya'll! :))

Top 10

I've finally managed to get my top 10 most played songs into one picture.

1. Owl City Meteor Shower, it's been my ringtone sings 2009. And its simply perfection.

2. Owl City Alligator Sky, the lyrics are so awesome and always spin in my head

3. Owl City Fireflies, just because it's one of the nicest songs I know

4. Avicii Levels, so nice to keep on repeat while studying or while going to school by bus.

5. Owl City, Hello Seattle Remix, awesome remix

6. Owl City, Galixies, also amazing lyrics

7. The Script, Dead Man walking. Also one of my putting on repeat songs. So nice

8. One Republic, Counting Stars from latest album. Ive listened to it soo much as soon as it was released a couple of months ago.

9. Daniel Adams Ray, Min Mamma. Swedish singer always played alooot during spring. Brings so many nice memories

10. Ellie Goulding, only female singer I like. Figure 8, she has an unbelievable voice.

Yeah I think it's quite obvious that Owl city pretty much rules my life. It is more or less the only music i listen to in case I dont happen to be playing the other 5 songs... :D Ohwell Owl city will be the best artist ever in my whole life and Meteor Shower will always be on my #1. As it simply has been my favorite song since 4 years back :) Also I more or less only like male singers like the script and one republic. Too bad all the other ladies except Ellie Goulding and maybe Rihanna....

CRYBABY

So yesterday was Vappu evening, or Mayday which in Finland means that you go outside with your friends and drink your head off. And today is thus a free day allowing people to recover from their massive hangovers. For some reason i decided not to go out and party hard yesterday as it would lead to consequences such as hangover today, loss of my precious braincells and just lots of panic attacks as my finals start tomorrow. I therefore thought I cant afford losing everything right before the few most important weeks of my life. So I'm sorry I cant post any hilarious pictures of party Harding people, but trust me I will as soon as my finals are over and my real life can finally start. but anyway I decided to stay home and study and spend time with my family, and since we are dutch we are not very much into these typical Finnish traditions involving drinking our heads off. But id say I had a good time until i realized it was the lonliest vappu ever as all the social networks were completely empty and all my friends were out partying, thank god I have the worlds best sister with whom i could have a nice and cozy time while watching "Pauly D project".

This leads me to today's challenge in which was the last time i laughed so hard my stomach hurt. And that was yesterday evening with my sister, and yeah i cannot quite explain but we can get really weird together and i started laughing really hard as she started poking my belly with my own finger just because it hurt already when laughing. I have no idea why i was laughing so hard, maybe it was just Pauly Ds ridiculous haircut or something.... :D

The when did I cry last time, we'll im a huge cry baby and anything can make me cry (even laughing) and yeah, last time I cried was because of a song, there is one song in this world that i just cannot listen to without crying, and i like it so much but im now terrified of it since i know i cant listen to it without crying. So i was told to listen to that song and the sound of the first 5seconds of the song made me burst out in tears and i had to turn it off. And trust me its EMBERASSING and FRUSTRATING. I really dont understand why I cant listen to it without crying, since as fast as it stops playing I'm fine and my tears stop flowing instantly and I continue my life.... O.o so weird.

Anyway here is the link below, and yeah please cry for my sake since I feel so weird crying to it literally EVERYSINGLEMOTHERDAMNTIME:

And have a very nice vappu evrybootey! :)

MY FAVORITE PIECE OF CLOTHING

I think my favorite piece of clothing when i was younger were these pants with cow print on, I even named them my "cow pants" and yeah i must have felt very stylish when i wore them. Too bad I don't have a picture of it right here, I might upload it one day just for the laughs. 

My favorite piece of clothing today is a carlings "baseball" shirt by saints and mortals i posted earlier. Its just so easy to pull over your head and not having to wear anything else with it, except pants ofc... Hihiii i just love the colors of the sleeves :)

Graduation

I have my graduation 20th of July and if Im not fast at getting a white dress i will have to go wrapped in a white sheet like a freaking toga party :S I dont know what to do.

Here is my top 4. I think i personally like 2 or 3 the best.

Please feel free to tell your opinion in the comments :)

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